I'll be an old aged pensioner before I know it...

     It's depressing!, Everything's happening so fast. The beginning of this year I thought to myself this isn't going to be a good year which I agreed with till last month but now i've booked my driving test, moving out any day now, second year of university and I turn the dreaded 20, Argh!. So I feel as though i'm going to be planning my funeral before long.

     Omg Eclipse later! I've been waiting for too long. I'm actually excited. The films are never as good as the books but still I get to look at all them! Yum! xox

By far the best month of my life this year...

      Since it's the last day of June I thought I would recap over the events of the last four weeks, it has been amazing!, I could not really be much happier right now. Tomorrow marks the first day of having my own place, well with David, Steph and Amanda of course but that just makes it all more exciting. But back to this month.

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  I got Anthony back
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  I achieved my first weight loss aim and have lost a total of 20 pounds
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  I got into the second year of university

I know it doesn't look a lot but looking back at the position I was in this time last month, believe me it is, Goodbye June, Hello July... Fingers crossed that things stay like this. Bye xox

Good thing's come to those who wait...

      Until this week, I thought that that saying "Good thing's come to those who wait" was actually just an optimistic saying which gave people false hope and something to just carry on living for, I did, but now it's actually became true. I broke up with my ex on the 12th December 2009, never got over him, never really wanted to, we broke up for no particular reason other than we found eachother at a hard time in my life in which I was really unhappy with myself an took it out on those closest to me, one being him and it got to much for him. So he left me. Anyway recently he's been edging back into my life and this week he said what i've been waiting/hoping to hear..."Laura your glued to me, Every day I wake up thinking about you, I go to bed thinking about you and your even in my dreams" I can actually say it was one of the happiest days of my life so hopefully we will soon be back on.. Finger's crossed for me. I'll keep you posted on any updates.

Yes I kept the pictures. Sad?

    Oh and just as I thought that was a good start to my week, I also got my university result's and made it into my next year! Woo, Things are finally going good, I hope I ain't just jynxed it all. COME ON ENGLAND! Bye xox

Don't you just love last minute plans...

      As you probably know from yesterday blog, yesterday started off as a good day, it just happened to get even better. Apart from walking through town in my sweaty gym clothes because silly me forget's me boot's everything was great. I'm back in touch with the ex aswell... I don't know why, I can't win either way so why not talk to him?. Anyway I was sitting in last night happily settling for a comfy night in with my laptop and the television, since I ain't got a book to read, when Kimberly phone's me asking if I want to go see Mamma Mia in the Echo arena, i'm obviously going to go since I love Abba and have nothing else to do, plus it was free which is also a bonus. It was amazing, but made me want to go clubbing after it, so me an Kim did, in our casuals, it was fun since we didn't have the agony of heel's might do it more often if i'm honest.
      Can't do the gym today, still dizzy from the alcohol last night... I wish I hadn't gone out just because i've remember how fun it is and will probably be returning to the old me. I'm going to try my best not to. xox

My dream's lately...

       have been really weird lately, I don't usually dream but for the past week or so i've had a really weird dream every night...What can that be?, The first one I can remember had these 2 in...

John and Edward Grimes

      I have no idea why they were in my dream, I can't stand them, their worse than the crazy frog! I'd happily listen to the crazy frog on repeat than them trying to sing...Yes! Trying!. But anyway they were running through a forrest with me and a few of my friend's in my dream, away from an angry mob...See, Weird, Not only did that happen in that dream but then we all carved furniture out of tree's so we could camp for the night and Edward, or John, told my friend Amanda that she was a good kisser, she is obsessed with them though maybe that's why, but I don't see how that would make me dream about them, ah well.

      The next night I had a dream that a boy I used to go to little school was pulling me around some hall in a shopping basket, and then another boy I know came over and shook his hand...Why? I'm starting to think that i've got something mentally wrong with me. I won't bore you with the other's plus they only get more weird, i'll let you's all think i'm still sane.

      Oh and going back to my second blog "I've decided i'm her, just the girlier version" it has been two day's and i've realised i'm also a-sexual like her, meaning I don't like boy's or girl's. I've told her this and she agreed that we are just going to die together, since she's told me her funeral song's anyway, why not? Plus she's going to be rich, so i'll just be her house keeper. Everyone's a winner.

       Today's better than yesterday... My driving instructer didn't cancel my lesson after all, I did get a text off him and thought oh great, but it was just to tell me that he was going to be 15 minutes late. It's definetly the gym though, I'm going now to go to the gym...Have to do twice as much so that I make up for missing yesterday, is that bad?... I don't care, it will be worth it soon. I did put a jumper on yesterday that I haven't worn in ages and I could see the difference so woo! even more determined now. xox

Another one of those days...

      I woke up, feeling good as I have for the past few weeks, I think it's the new lifestyle. But gradually thing's have gotten worse, yesterday I had many plans for today such as starting with a good work out in the gym, 2 hour driving lesson and then seeing my father who I only get to see twice a week because of distance.
     Anyway only one of the above is still happening, and I won't be suprised if that doesn't get cancelled just to make me have another one of those boring days. Okay so not going the gym is partially my choice because I don't want to fall asleep behind the wheel later, so as long as my driving lesson does'nt get cancelled i'll probably be happy that I didn't go the gym, but, i'm having withdrawal symtom's from not going... Oh my god, I am addicted, suppose that's a good thing though, can't complain. I ain't in a bad mood with my father because he can't come, i'm just upset that I don't get to see him, as well as knowing he is really sick, he has cancer, and at 70 years old, it scares me. Hurry up an pass your driving test Laura! I miss him... Anyway i'll let you know tomorrow if my day is as bad as it's looking to be...If i'm still here knowing my look i'll get ran over by a bus or something...xox

P.S Feel Better Soon Dad! I Love You! ♥

I've decided i'm her, just the girlier version.

           Since I started University, I have became closer to one person in particular who was in my small group of friends in sixthform, when I was in sixthform we spoke, but in a group, we never spoke directly to eachother or went out just the two of us, probably because we are completely the opposite to eachother, but recently with spending more time together we have started picking up eachothers obsessions/hobbies etc. Her names Steph, I'll probably mention her a lot in my blogs. That's me and her below...

      Anyway Steph's a bit, how can I say...nerdy, but in a good way, she collect's superhero poster's, comic's and thing's like that and has an obsession with vampires, that obsession's rubbed off on me but not to the extent to call it an obsession, I love Edward from Twilight and Damon an Stefan from The Vampire Diaries, but who can blame me!, but that's not why i've decided i'm her, she dragged me in to the Build-A-Bear shop a few month's back, her being all excited and me feeling all embarrased because I felt stupid being around all little children, anyway within 2 second's I was hooked and decided that I was going to buy myself a bear next time I could afford it, so i did and called it Curly, they are so cute though, This is what I bought...

Curly Teddy £12.50

Belted Vest Top 2-pc £10.00

Black Canvas High-Tops £5.00

       Can you just imagine how cute he looks!, see what I mean about being her, I'm getting excited about a Build-A-Bear in a blog. However I only decided this today when I found myself using moving out as an excuse to go and buy another one!, I bought one for my mother, saying that it was so she can't miss me when I move out on the 1st July. I called her's Little Laura and dressed her to remind my mother of me, i bought a pair of monkey pajama's since all I seem to do when i'm in the house is sit around in pajama's and because i'm obsessed with monkey's which over the year's she has came to realise, a mobile phone since it's like part of my body and never away from me and a wig the same colour as my hair just to make it look like me. I would buy everything in that shop if I could, I will one day...

       So yes, this has made me decide that i'm becoming more and more like Steph as the day's go by, i'll keep you posted on any other bit's of Steph I pick up. xox